Ramblings

Nostalgia

Nostalgia. What is Nostalgia?

nos·tal·gia
näˈstaljə,nəˈstaljə/
noun
  • a sentimental longing or wistful affection for the past, typically for a period or place with happy personal associations.
This year I will be turning 42 in December. 42. It doesn’t sound right nor does it look right as I type it and look back at it.
How does this happen?
Where does the time go?
Duane and I just finished binge watching a show on Netflix called Riverdale. It was one of those shows that was “suggested” by Netflix. Let’s be honest….Netflix knows me better than I know myself. My husband HATES what he calls “teeny bopper” TV so it sat on “my list” for a long time. I think I ended up reading about this on Facebook or Instagram later and watched a trailer on You Tube. After I watched the preview…I didn’t really need to know anymore. I saw Luke Perry and it brought back my entire childhood.
All of it!!!
Luke Perry.
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Look at this man. What a beautiful piece of …yes I’m about to go there MAN MEAT!!! I, like every girl I knew was a 90210 buff! I never missed it.

 

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Looking at this picture brings me back to High School. God I hated High School. I hated school from as far back as I remember. My family didn’t have money to buy me the best clothes, we didn’t live in the nicest house…and I was fat, I didn’t care what I looked like. It just didn’t matter to me. I did however care what people thought of me. Somehow I managed to graduate…with a bunch of people I didn’t even like (minus maybe 20). It was a popularity contest.

None of that mattered when I plopped down in front of my TV to watch this show.

Needless to say, we watched Riverdale in 2 days and LOVED IT!!!

There is a song by Trisha Yearwood called “The Song Remembers When”.

How accurate is that?

I hear a song on the radio and I can remember exactly where I was in life when that song was popular.

For example:

Tim McGraw “I Like It I Love it” -I was working at Taco Johns and I remember my cousin singing this song to me.

Tim McGraw-“Don’t take the girl”-watching the music video @ my best friends house with all my favorite people in the world and how excited we were that the Mama came running around the corner with the fishing pole. (she lived!!!!)

I never thought I would know life without those people. I don’t talk to any of them anymore. In fact, I don’t even know where life has taken them. Where they work. Who they married.  I have tried to tell this to my own daughter as I know how important her friends are to her right now. It’s just one of those things that happens as you grow older. People move away, find new loves, have children. The things that were once so important….now are just memories. It is sad, but true.

Tim McGraw (I loved him okay)

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I listened to this album over and over and over again. I was dating my first husband at the time. (I’m surprised I don’t hate TM now…ha)

Anything by Duran Duran-I think of my dear friend Laura. Her and her sister Ana introduced me to this amazing band.

Eric Carmen-“Turn the radio up” and Billy Idol “Mony Mony”. -Sitting on the floor in my best friend Gracie’s bedroom listening to these songs over and over on those little records (my husband said they were called 45s LOL)

Anything by Garth Brooks-my dear friend Teresa (who is STILL obsessed with this man (I won’t say how many years) later).

Juice Newton “Angel of the morning” and “Queen of Hearts”-When my Daddy had the restaurant (I think I was 5ish) These were always playing on the jukebox…Daddy would bring me a Bacon and Egg sandwich with mayo. (my favorite)

Sam Cooke-When I hear him…I think of Dad in the Navy. He was one of his favorites.

K.T Oslin- “80s Ladies” Mom loved this song and told me it reminded her and her friends. Of course she was the border line fool. Still can’t listen to this song without crying though I love it as much as she did.

There are many many more. Where was I going with this?

Life moves pretty fast. If you don’t stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it. ~Ferris Bueller

Let’s go back to Luke Perry. I posted a picture from the 90s.

This is him today.

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It makes me sad that all of these people that I grew up with are getting older. I know that means I am to. My Mom used to say to me, “All these people are my age…they look terrible. I don’t look that bad do I?” I always told her No. I never thought of my Mom as “old”. I always thought 71 was too young to die. I still do.

Today is Monday. I had the weekend off. I don’t want to go to work today. Not even a little bit. I will get up from this chair, shower, get ready for work and be thankful that I have a job to go to. I will kiss my boys goodbye and try to have a great day anyway.

“Embrace the glorious mess that you are.”~Elizabeth Gilbert

 

Weight Loss Journey

Routines

The last 6 months I have tried to have the same routine. As much as possible with a 4 year old @ home. My typical day would be get up at 5, get dressed and ready for work and then sit on the couch and look at my cell phone for 30 minutes. Today I woke up at 4:30 and convinced myself to get up. That extra 30 minutes of sleep wasn’t gonna help much anyway. Right?

My original plan was to get up and workout to one of the 20 DVDs I have. (I have been fat…pretty much since birth so I have accumulated QUITE the collection). I got up, not wanting to work out AT ALL. After all, it was only 4:30 and I was tired. Really tired. I managed to eat a bowl of Raisin Bran and got a wild idea to walk the track for 30 minutes before I go to work. The track is right next to the nursing home that I work at. (what an ingenious plan right???)

A few months ago when the weather first started to warm up, I would go to the track after work. I really enjoyed it. Most of the time I am out there alone and I feel like the only person in the world. I have very very little time to myself so what I do get…I cherish. I bought myself an IPOD (music lover) and made this a routine until the high school started having track meets after school. This threw a rock into my plans. Eventually I just stopped going and started using my treadmill. That gets boring real quick!  Liam (my 4 year old) can’t stand for me to be away from him for long after I get home from work (he is currently singing in bathtub or I wouldn’t have time to write this for you to enjoy!)

I managed to walk 2 miles before I clocked in @ 6am. It is a great time of the day to walk and hope to develop a routine by doing this. Today was very humid. I have laid out clothes for tomorrow to wear instead of my scrubs (today was a last minute decision)

Fail to Plan. Plan to Fail.

So I have a plan! Having said that, I have been exhausted all day!!! I wanted to come home and take a nap but the Prince won’t have it. Our bedtime is a special time. Typically, we go to bed @ 730 or 8 and then tell stories, sing, spell, read (pretty much whatever the Prince wants to do) Last night we found a game called Magic Kingdoms and we both loved it.  We are hoping to get to Florida later this year and WE LOVE DISNEY!!! By the time Liam fell asleep and I moved him over to where he usually sleeps, I didn’t get to sleep until around 11. 

Needless to say, I’m a tired girl. 

Weight Loss Journey

Progress Pics

Look at me learning!!!

My camera uploads to my phone and tablet but unfornutely, my desktop is not that smart.

My workouts are 90% walking. This means….MY LEGS LOOK GREAT! (Ignore the very dirty floor mat)Very proud of them! My arms…are getting there. Trying to do weights a little more but not fond of them. Maybe I will be when they become a bit more defined?!?!

Weight Loss Journey

New Me! New Blog

As most of you probably know, I have been blogging for years. I love it. I do. I just wish I would do it more often. It has always been so much easier for me to write what I want to say than to speak it. I guess it stems from social anxiety I have been carrying for years.

New Readers?

See what you have missed here:

And Then There Were 3

and my most recent health/weight loss blog here:

My Weight Loss Journey

All caught up?

Great!

I started this day with the intention of making 1 blog post to each page as it has been a while since I have updated either. I started messing around with the format of my page. I couldn’t get it just the way I wanted and kinda hate that I have 2 blogs anyway so…

That brings us here.

Welcome! Thank you for visiting my site. It is still under construction and yes as basic as it is right now…took about 2 hours to get me here! Blah! I was gonna workout! Ha! Good thing the day is still young AND my day off!

First things first. Most of you are probably here because you have been following my weight loss goals. The other half? Not sure but hope you are enjoying yourself! If not, I guess you will be closing this page soon.

SEE YA LOSERS!

Where was I? Avoiding the topic at hand I guess. About a month ago, I went off my Phentermine pills. They were helping me lose weight but I wasn’t keen on the way they were making me feel. Since then I have been trying just to maintain my weight loss, which is a struggle in its own. I am remembering why I went on the pills now but in the end, I try to remind myself why I started this journey. I want to be healthy. I want to feel better and more than anything, I want to be here as long as I can for my children. My Mom only made it to 71. (NOT LONG ENOUGH!!!!) I miss her every single day but luckily I see her in my dreams pretty frequently. Just last night, she went to Disney with me!! (Something we never got to do while she was alive….#1 because we never had the money. #2 the only time she would fly was for medical reason and absolutely against her will)

My diet has been less than the best and workout? Ugh. I don’t even wanna type that word. I am burnt out. I am going into my 6th month of this stuff. I haven’t given up. I know I need to push myself further to get the results I want. For some reason, with the warmer weather, I have a whole new list of things I want to do. One of those things is eat ice cream. God I love ice cream. The best thing about living in a small town is there isn’t the temptation of a multitude of fast food restaurants. Having said that. There is still the Taste “E” Freeze!!!

And that is a real problem. They have the best ice cream in the whole wide world!!!

Luckily, I have the will power to only visit on my cheat days although my husband mentions it daily. (Sorry Pump)

Current weight: 179 (Goal Weight: 145)